Day 2

Well it is now the day after dooms day, and i think i may have got my head around everything...... i think, i don't think i will be crying any more, i just need to pick myself up and get on with things now, no more sulking.

One good thing from this my mum and dad are coming to visit this weekend so i can have a nice mum hug, they always make me feel better :)

I have been looking for jobs and there are one or two good ones out there so today will be all about updating my CV and sending to different places, then i need to start working on my interview skills :s that should be fun.

I must also make sure i eat something today because i didn't have anything yesterday (apart from a much needed chocolate bar!).

I need to stop doubting myself as this isn't going to give me the confidence to get myself a new job. So i just need to get over this and hold my head up high...... its a lot harder than you think!

Although on a more funny note, my boyfriend had 2 teeth taken out yesterday and whilst we were sleeping he dribbled on my pillow.....which was very nice of him lol, i can always rely on him to make me smile without realising it. He actually bought the 2 teeth home with him (one tooth has part of his jaw bone on it apparently - it looks disgusting) He thinks its amazing but he also wants a sympathy vote, so we were both licking our wounds last night.

I can always turn to my boyfriend for help and support we have been together 6 years now, sure we have had our ups and downs but we got through it, I'm actually quite proud of our relationship, we have discussed the 'M' word but despite wanting to be together for ever we are happy as we are at the moment. Also does marriage even mean much these days?? many people are getting divorced, which is so sad, we see many celebs getting divorced, and its not nice to see it all publicised, it seems like such a traumatic experience having everyone judge you. I don't think i could go through a divorce, having everyone talk about you when your not in the room, i guess that's why I'm not to fussed about getting married just yet?? Maybe I'm worried it will ruin what we have?? I look at my parents, they have been together 26 years and i hope will be together for another 26 years, but my boyfriends mum and dad are divorced, his mum is now in her 3rd marriage. That is another reason i fear marriage..... having his mum and dad in the same room with alcohol, i actually have nightmares about my wedding day and it been ruined by the in laws lol, although my friend did say she will keep the peace and have a 'naughty corner' can always rely on Laura to organise everyone : )

Anyway i better get ready for work, life must continue, and i must earn my money because I'm going to need it! x